9.1 Who is your hero? (muse awaits)
Written in letter format
I wish you were here. You don't know how hard things have been, we've pulled through though, we've survived, which is what you would have wanted. I didn't want to hurt you. I wanted to save you, and I feel like a failure that I couldn't do that for my own brother. I wanted to make your pain go away and I wanted to keep you with me. I didn't want to kill you, but you even said: you didn't want them taking you and I couldn't have carried you, I might be strong, but we wouldn't have made it out. We both would have been caught.
I miss you, I need you. You were able to make everything make sense in the end and I need that right now. Things have gone so over the deep end since you died. Since I killed you. Logan and I? Something happened. A virus. We can't touch each other without him getting sick, and it hurts. I want my big brother there to help me through this. Comfort me. Alec, he isn't you. He'll never be you, and I just need that so much right now. I guess that's why I'm writing this letter. I miss you Ben. You were my hero, the one that I looked up to in Manticore. Without you, it's like a piece is missing, but I do know that you'll always be there in the end and somehow that gives me a strength.
Max Guevara/Dark Angel/150 + words
I wish you were here. You don't know how hard things have been, we've pulled through though, we've survived, which is what you would have wanted. I didn't want to hurt you. I wanted to save you, and I feel like a failure that I couldn't do that for my own brother. I wanted to make your pain go away and I wanted to keep you with me. I didn't want to kill you, but you even said: you didn't want them taking you and I couldn't have carried you, I might be strong, but we wouldn't have made it out. We both would have been caught.
I miss you, I need you. You were able to make everything make sense in the end and I need that right now. Things have gone so over the deep end since you died. Since I killed you. Logan and I? Something happened. A virus. We can't touch each other without him getting sick, and it hurts. I want my big brother there to help me through this. Comfort me. Alec, he isn't you. He'll never be you, and I just need that so much right now. I guess that's why I'm writing this letter. I miss you Ben. You were my hero, the one that I looked up to in Manticore. Without you, it's like a piece is missing, but I do know that you'll always be there in the end and somehow that gives me a strength.
Max Guevara/Dark Angel/150 + words
